Thursday, October 27, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
New look obviously
Since i have promised myself that yesterday was my last depressing post, so i decided to change the design of my blog. Makes it more colorful,brighter and most important of all more cheerful. Rather the previous dark side kinda of look..the more i look at it the more depress i will get.
So,today get into the office in the morning. Settle few things that should be settled and off to JB. My hometown and my home in Kulaifornia. I missed it a lot and definitely I am going to visit my late father's grave. Missed him a lot too that old man. It has been 7 years he left the family. He has and was the greatest father for me.
I remembered the time when I was in college and i did a birthday party at my home. My house was full with friends, it was very noise with people talking and loud music at the background then suddenly out of blue everybody went silent. Only the music can be heard. I took a peak from the kitchen door wondering what has happened. Rupanya...my dad just came back from his work and was standing at the front door staring at all of them. All of them mind you...got up and shake hand with my father due to respect. My friends who is smoking willing to throw their cigarettes away although they only puff quarter of it. I was laughing in my heart looking at this scene.
Without even a smile on his face,my late father walked to enter his room. I followed him from behind thinking "waaaa..abah marah ke sebab bising?" Once entered his room, he laughed wholeheartedly....ler....he was just scaring them off only..aih..
That was my father. He has the killer look where everybody is so scared of him but he has a heart of gold. He will helped people no matter who that person is. I am amazed and idolized that character of his.
He used to remind this me .."jangan sekali-kali jadi hamba orang"..
I hold on to that advise till today...
Cheerios...
Past,present and whatever
So,I am back writing in my blog which i have left it exactly 1 year ago. The last that I wrote is when MPH Headquarters was burnt down by my own ex General Manager...went into MPH Corporate Sales Division and so here I am venture into a new world,well not exactly a new world for me,basicly I am more familiar with it. Relating to Oil and Gas matters..supplying Safety Apparels to the government sectors. Hope to find a hubby in the govt sectors...hahahha..finger crossed.
It is kind of weird to type and start my writing again which i have not done it for ages and i seem to be very awkward with it. Its like...is my grammar correct or what i am suppose to type? But what the heck, I am just gonna start typing because i am good in talking nonsense. ok...i am babbling nonsense right now. ahhaha...
Previous and this year was very hectic for me. more like hectic with my surroundings,my job and myself. I feel so suffocated that i could not even breathe properly. I have always feel wanna scream and say "LET ME GO!!!!!" but exactly on why should i scream, i do not know why. There is a certain situation happened few months back which has makes me realized the true meaning of life,friendship and family ties. Not forgetting the word "trust" is important here.
I have trusted someone whom i claimed a very good friend of mine. I have confidence of trust in her and i have actually expressed certain feelings and problems to her but yet she used that "trust" as a weapon to attacked me. I could not defend myself nor i was prepared for the situation. All i remembered, I was dumbfounded and speechless that such things has happened. Worst of all, i have lost my siblings trust towards me.
I can be depressed or angry but i did not. I was very calm and let my family insulted and scolded me. All i know at that period of time, Allah is with me. HE knows what is best for me. HE was the one who gave me this test and as HIS slave, I must face and accepting it. I do not wish once again becomes the person whom I used to be. In past I was a person who has no path in what direction she should go...a person whom always blames others for what has becomes of me...a person whom thinks that when i fell,there will be always somebody to catch me. Never once it will cross my mind,that I have to travel this journey alone. So, here i am...in present now...i have start my journey by myself.
This post will be my last depressing post for this coming year..I hope so..hahaha. no more tears,no more sadness and no more hatred.
With the help by Almight God,Allah and few of my very bestfriends...Alin,Zully,Azura ..I will survive the journey...insyallah.
The past is past...present is present...cry,angry,depressed..get up and move on for a better future...Insyallah..:)
Cheerios...
It is kind of weird to type and start my writing again which i have not done it for ages and i seem to be very awkward with it. Its like...is my grammar correct or what i am suppose to type? But what the heck, I am just gonna start typing because i am good in talking nonsense. ok...i am babbling nonsense right now. ahhaha...
Previous and this year was very hectic for me. more like hectic with my surroundings,my job and myself. I feel so suffocated that i could not even breathe properly. I have always feel wanna scream and say "LET ME GO!!!!!" but exactly on why should i scream, i do not know why. There is a certain situation happened few months back which has makes me realized the true meaning of life,friendship and family ties. Not forgetting the word "trust" is important here.
I have trusted someone whom i claimed a very good friend of mine. I have confidence of trust in her and i have actually expressed certain feelings and problems to her but yet she used that "trust" as a weapon to attacked me. I could not defend myself nor i was prepared for the situation. All i remembered, I was dumbfounded and speechless that such things has happened. Worst of all, i have lost my siblings trust towards me.
I can be depressed or angry but i did not. I was very calm and let my family insulted and scolded me. All i know at that period of time, Allah is with me. HE knows what is best for me. HE was the one who gave me this test and as HIS slave, I must face and accepting it. I do not wish once again becomes the person whom I used to be. In past I was a person who has no path in what direction she should go...a person whom always blames others for what has becomes of me...a person whom thinks that when i fell,there will be always somebody to catch me. Never once it will cross my mind,that I have to travel this journey alone. So, here i am...in present now...i have start my journey by myself.
This post will be my last depressing post for this coming year..I hope so..hahaha. no more tears,no more sadness and no more hatred.
With the help by Almight God,Allah and few of my very bestfriends...Alin,Zully,Azura ..I will survive the journey...insyallah.
The past is past...present is present...cry,angry,depressed..get up and move on for a better future...Insyallah..:)
Cheerios...
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Finally...
O.M.G...i finally manage to reopen my blog after a year i left it...i even forgot the name of my own blog...ok..i am to excited to start writing again which definitely i will start tomoro..so for now,i shall get my beauty sleep after using my brain to much
wondering wht d heck is password n username..hahhaah
so till then...later bebeh...
wondering wht d heck is password n username..hahhaah
so till then...later bebeh...
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