Overstressed or overexert?

Lately depression mode button is ON throughout the whole week. I have no mood to do anything. No mood to meet up with people. No mood to even read a book which was of course my favourite pastime. I rather lie down on a bed and listening to my MP3 with depressing songs stuck into my ear.
Yesterday was hell for me. I had diarhoea and my blood pressure shoot up to 180..got a shock of my life. My family doctor says.."adik,you are overexerting yourself. What exactly are you thinking?' Seriously..what the heck was I thinking? Am I thinking too much or the work is overloaded? Well...I guess I'm frustrated due to I can't focus which work am i supposed to be concetrate on. Hmm..and another thing..I think I am frustrated about people that I used to care for. Someone that I misses so much and we have not been talking with each other about 3 months now due to some silly misunderstanding. And of course I miss another person who is so far away from me whom also refuse to talk to me which I have no idea why..hmm...

Few days ago, my second niece were having problems with her mom. Huge row with each other and she went into depression thinking that ALLAH refuse to grant her wish. I knew I was not in the good place to help her but yet I gave her the support that she needed. I told her, this is just part of ALLAH test to you to see how are you gonna cope with your everyday life. Don't ever give up and don't ever question of why ALLAH gave you this test. Alhamdulilah,she took my advice and gain the strength to fight what she believes.

Today, I came to work with a motivation says that I will just do whatever I can but if people do not wish to appreciate my effort then there is nothing can be done. So I will strived to be the best...yeah right...whatever it is,everything that I own right now is in GOD's hand. If it's meant to be then it will meant to be...HE will decide if I am to be stuck here at my workplace or to be designated somewhere else.

So is it overstressed or overexert? I guess...I am just mentally tired...

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