Past,present and whatever

So,I am back writing in my blog which i have left it exactly 1 year ago. The last that I wrote is when MPH Headquarters was burnt down by my own ex General Manager...went into MPH Corporate Sales Division and so here I am venture into a new world,well not exactly a new world for me,basicly I am more familiar with it. Relating to Oil and Gas matters..supplying Safety Apparels to the government sectors. Hope to find a hubby in the govt sectors...hahahha..finger crossed.

It is kind of weird to type and start my writing again which i have not done it for ages and i seem to be very awkward with it. Its like...is my grammar correct or what i am suppose to type? But what the heck, I am just gonna start typing because i am good in talking nonsense. ok...i am babbling nonsense right now. ahhaha...

Previous and this year was very hectic for me. more like hectic with my surroundings,my job and myself. I feel so suffocated that i could not even breathe properly. I have always feel wanna scream and say "LET ME GO!!!!!" but exactly on why should i scream, i do not know why. There is a certain situation happened few months back which has makes me realized the true meaning of life,friendship and family ties. Not forgetting the word "trust" is important here.

I have trusted someone whom i claimed a very good friend of mine. I have confidence of trust in her and i have actually expressed certain feelings and problems to her but yet she used that "trust" as a weapon to attacked me. I could not defend myself nor i was prepared for the situation. All i remembered, I was dumbfounded and speechless that such things has happened. Worst of all, i have lost my siblings trust towards me.

I can be depressed or angry but i did not. I was very calm and let my family insulted and scolded me. All i know at that period of time, Allah is with me. HE knows what is best for me. HE was the one who gave me this test and as HIS slave, I must face and accepting it. I do not wish once again becomes the person whom I used to be. In past I was a person who has no path in what direction she should go...a person whom always blames others for what has becomes of me...a person whom thinks that when i fell,there will be always somebody to catch me. Never once it will cross my mind,that I have to travel this journey alone. So, here i am...in present now...i have start my journey by myself.

This post will be my last depressing post for this coming year..I hope so..hahaha. no more tears,no more sadness and no more hatred.
With the help by Almight God,Allah and few of my very bestfriends...Alin,Zully,Azura ..I will survive the journey...insyallah.

The past is past...present is present...cry,angry,depressed..get up and move on for a better future...Insyallah..:)

Cheerios...