Ok..I am pissed off with somebody. I could not describe how pissed I felt at the moment. Is like...a really big question mark in my head on why people keep on hurting other people by silencing themselves. What exactly did I do? If I did something wrong, can't they just tell me straight to my face? Why do they have to go missing in action?
It is really hurting me terribly..I thought both of us had that bonding. A mutual bonding that both of us can be friends forever. I really thought we could maintain that friendship but my thought was wrong. For no particular reason..it's just disappear. No clue..no answer...just a jigsaw puzzle lying on the table scattered everywhere with nobody finishing it.
I tried not to be angry..i tried to understand there is a blessing in disguise but my heart is too upset. People around me says "ignore it sue, you have gone through worse than this". How could I? Friendship is everything to me. Friends are like your family in a way. They will be just one call away when you need them.I really do treasure my friends, doesn't matter who or what they are. But well, maybe I am not worth it to be their friend...maybe.
I guess I need to be careful with my own heart next time. In the end, I will be the one who broke down and cry. I had enough people treating me this way. The pain in my heart is extremely wordless for me to describe.
If you are reading this my dear friend...you have hurt me deeply and please think of ALLAH when you decided to hurt me this way.
"Time passes. Even when it seems impossible, even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls but pass it does. Even for me.."
Insya ALLAH..the wound in my heart will pass...soon..ameen..
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