Honestly, i have so many things to tell but I am not sure which one is which to say it out first. My intention to continue my Umrah story has been postponed too many times due to..hmm..let me see..guess I was just not in the mood...I think..or maybe, just maybe due to some other reason.
The reason of me being so irritatingly annoyed at the moment because I saw something that had hurt me deeply which of course I do not wish to say it out in here...ok...NEXT!!!!
It has been a month since I started working as an Executive B.E.S.T MPH team...seriously, I felt as though I never left MPH before. Mostly of the staff still remembers me but one thing for sure, the management has not changed at all..hmm..can't expect much huh? A lot of them asked me, why did u come back? With your experience you can get better offer but why did you come back to work for MPH? Hmm..good question with no solid answer to give. The only defence that I have was...I love organising job,meaning going outdoor rather than sitting indoor.
But still the next question will be...but you still can get event coordinator job somewhere else what...seriously, I have no idea how i can get into MPH again. Maybe because of my friends,maybe because the environment, maybe I just missed being around books...or maybe...
I remember the prayers that I was reciting in front of Kaabah. "YA ALLAH,I want to change to be better person,please help me to fulfill my promise to myself that I will be a good Muslimah,be loyal and faithful towards YOU always and have a good career enough for myself to take care of my mother and YA ALLAH,YOU will decide the fate that I will face in future because YOU know more and better than I do about myself.."
Yes..i do still remember those exact prayers that I keep on repeating it in front of Kaabah. Maybe it was fate that I will come back to MPH...hmm..only HE knows. So,lets not debate on why I came back to MPH, that is so not important. What is more important is that I worked and everything that I'm doing right now is because of ALLAH S.W.T.
I have learned that everything you do in life will not be meaningful at all if you do not have a vision or mission to achieve something. All this years I have wasted my life in trying to impressed my boss,families, friends or whoever is around me just simply to get into their good books but never once I have this thought to get into ALLAH goods book...sad huh...so when I actually realised this, I tell myself.."hey,be who you are and not be who you are not supposed to be and cleanse your heart to do your job in a ALLAH's away and Insya ALLAH,you will always be blessed by HIM"..so..that's it...I will do the best as how much I can in my job and fulfill the high expectation from the Upper management towards me..well..we're just humans but not robots. Even Rome wasn't build in one day. It takes a decade for Rome to achieve their goals wasn't it?
"What you do in life,echoes in eternity"..hmm..i love this quote and sometimes it scares me. Everything we do now will be question in afterlife...geez..eerie.. Sit down and think will ya. What exactly you want to achieve in your life? and everything you do now,where does it lead to? Does it lead to ALLAH's way or the other way round? I know what I want...I definitely wants to be in ALLAH's good books...what about you?
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