Hmm..I seriously miss him even though he was not worth to missed about. I guess this is due that his birthday is around the corner. Argghhhh!!! I hate this feeling. I hate this vulnerable feeling that I am facing and need to endured it. I wish I never met him and I wish I never got close to him before this and how I wish..seriously wish that I can see my future like what Alice Cullen can do so that I knew that he will hurt me and safe myself from the heartbreak.
It has been exactly 7 months that he stop contacting me after the day that I helped him. How I wish I can turn back time but for what? So that he can hanging on to me and I have high hopes that things will be different even then? No,it won't be different, it will be the same. He will treat me as someone who will do anything for him without asking for anything back. He knew that...
But honestly, I can't stop myself from missing him. He was different from any guy that I know. He can make me laugh and cry at the same time. He was mature for his age and he knew....how I felt and can be transparent about it. He knew when I was angry, he knew exactly when I am sulking and wants to cry even over the phone, he knew my character.
He was the second person in my life that I am not able to get over with. It is a common statment that time will heal the wound, but will it? After so many times getting hurt,will I ever be healed? Or forever I will shield myself from getting hurt and refuse to feel the same again...to fall in love again..hmm..I do not know....
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