I keep on calling Jann many times. She still has not picked up any of my calls or even replied my messages. I called and called, messages after messages. Worried and panic overcomes me. I could not think straight. What if she met with an accident? What if she has been kidnapped? All sort of ideas came into my brain at that moment. I paced around my room. I was sweating profusely and I shivered. Not due to cold weather...but due to nervous of not knowing what is happening. The last thing on my mind was that she have someone new. No, it couldn't be. We just been separated for a week. It can't be that she has someone else's. I tried calling her again and after how many hundreds attempt to get her, finally she answered my calls.
"Where are you? " I asked trying to stay calm.
"I'm at friend's place " she answered me lazily. She sound as though she has just woken up from a sleep. I looked at my watch and it was already 3pm in the afternoon.
"Which friend? Don't you remember I'm coming back today? Why aren't you at home?" I choose my word carefully as I do not wish to create any arguement with Jann.
"Can I just see you at home? I'm kind of having headache at the moment," she hang up the call before I could say anything else. "Wait Jann!!!" I shouted but the line was already dead.
I sat on my bed and stared into space. She hung up on me. All this years that I was with her she has never done that to me. Even how bad our arguement will be, she will not or never hang up on me. At the moment, I was trying to calm myself down by telling to myself, maybe she just hang out with couple of friends, got tired and sleep there since I'm not at home. I realised that my hand was shaking tremendously. I keep telling myself I was being paranoid. I went out from my room, go to the kitchen and make myself a cup of coffee and search for my box of cigarettes.
Took out 1 cigarettes, light it and inhaled it trying to calm myself down. This is ridicillious, I shouldn't being this panicky for no reason.
I grab a magazine and trying to read it. Geez..it doesn't work at all. The insecurity feeling is bothering me like as though there is something going on. No, I should not suspect Jann as though she is having affair. I just left her for a week to be with my dad. Of course she could understand can she? What if the situation is reversed towards her? Well, I will be at home waiting for her to come back, that's for sure. I picked up my phone to call her again but then I stopped. I know Jann. She will get furious if I keep on bothering her with questions. She doesn't like to be question but this waiting for her at home and not knowing what is going on is really bugging me like crazy!
So, I waited. The night came,lying on my bed and stared at the door but Jann still did not appeared at my doorway. All sort of imaginations running through my brain. My heart was thumping loudly and I wonder if my sister can hear it from next room as the house was really silent. All I could hear was my own unstable breathing. Ok, that's it...I need a fag. I got up and search for my cigarettes. All boxes are already empty. I became very agitated, I change my clothes and went out from the house to go to the nearby shop.
I checked whether my sister is already asleep. No sound from her room at all. I sneaked out from the house silently. Went straight to the lift, the lift door opened and I went it. Kind of freaky to be alone at this hour. I pressed "G" and the lift moved downwards. Weird...this lift is damn slow tonight. It reached the ground floor, the door opened ajar and when I was about to a step out from the lift, I looked up and there she was. Jann was standing in front of the lift. Staring and frowning at me. She wasn't alone. She was with somebody. Another girl stood there. I turned my head and looked at the person next to her. Petite, pretty and fair skinned. She look amazing under the dim light. A stranger standing there but there some familiarity about her face. As though I've seen her somewhere. However, this familiarity does not ring any bells in my brain if she was friend of ours, mine or Janns. I never met or seen her before. I looked at her and turn my head to Jann who was now already fidgeting unconsciously.
"Where do you think you going in this middle of the night?" Jann asked, still frowning of course.
" I want to buy some cigarettes. There's none at home " I replied. My eyes turn to the girl who standing beside her. She was smiling at me. I tried to smile backed but somehow or rather my smiling nerves was unfunctional at that moment.
"Ayesha, this is Catherine. Cate, this is Ayesha" Jann was gesturing her towards me. She held out her hand and smiled.
"Hi there, Ayesha. Nice to meet you. Jann told me a lot about you " she said happily. I shaked her hand and nodded. "Nice to meet you too although Jann never mention anything about you," I replied with a smile. Catherine nodded and chuckled.
"So, Jann..I don't think you need an escort to go back upstairs. I think you already on a safe hands now. We shall meet tomorrow for lunch yeah?". I'm not sure whether it was my imagination or reality, I damn sure I saw her winked at Jann and brushed her hand smoothly through Jann's arm. Jann did not replied.
"Anyway, I see you around too Ayesha. Bye..." she said happily and walked away.
Too stunned to say anything, I turned to move but was stopped by Jann. She grabbed my hand and I brushed it away.
"Where do you think you going?"asked Jann panicking. "I told you I need to buy some cigarettes at the shop" I answered without looking at her. "I'll go with you,there is no one around" she said.
"No,I'll be fine. You must be exhausted from your fun day out. Go upstairs and get some rest. I will be up soon". I did not wait for her reply and move on. Jann stands there for awhile watching me walk away and soon after I heard the lift door opened and she went it.
I walked slowly to the shop. I clenched my fingers to a fist trying to control my anger within me. Who was she? My God...who was she?
I reached at the shop, grab few boxes of cigarettes and paid the shopowner who already half asleep. I realised I was shaken till my ribs was hurting me. I went and sat down on a chair at the playground. No one is around. I took out one cigarettes and inhaled it slowly. I was trying to calm myself down. All sort of feelings overcomes me. I keep on telling myself. She just a friend...maybe.
I looked up and saw lights was still on from my room. Jann definitely is waiting for me to come back. I inhaled one last time and I put it out. I walked really slowly thinking how to react towards Jann. I went upstairs, open the door. Grab some cold drinks from the fridge and walk to my room. I opened the door and saw Jann already bathe, sitting on the bed waiting for me.
"Hey...we need to talk.."Jann said with a tremor in her voice. Knowing that I have to stay calm in facing the truth, I nodded and close the door behind me.
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