Unsatisfaction feelings..

Ok .. I was supposed to continue MY STORY but somehow, I totally went blank...lost in words more like it. Staring at the monitor and listening to a song titled The Call, it does calm me down for awhile there and suddenly my fingers starts to type sentences which my brain nerves gave the instructions to do so. My brain telling me to pour everything out...all my unsatisfaction feeling which any minute will be explode if I ignore it.

Gosh...I am so irritated with my eldest sister, whom always throwing tantrums for no bladdy reason. She always PMS aka Pre Menstrual Stress, which obviously 24 hours. She has this mood swing..one second she can laugh with u happily, one second after that, she will get pissed of suddenly. Weird...could never understand her character.

My mum...pity my mum. Being an old women, sensitivity will get to them easily. So, can u imagine when my sister starts her rumbling? My mum will feel uneasy and she will get upset..n best part of all, my sister doesn't realised all this. Can't she feel a bit appreciated that her mother cooks for her family? Wake up early morning just to prepare food for the kids to pack for school lunch? All she best at....was throwing tantrums. Start nagging if her kitchen doesn't clean as her expectations. Urgghhh...

I have always got the urged to bring my mum back to JB...but being my mother, whom she is....can't bear to live her grandchildren unattended. I told her, just say the word..I will bring u back to hometown right this moment..but nope..she can't bear to leave.

I am not saying my eldest sister a bad person...she just very short tempered person. Small tiny little things can blew her up like a timebomb. For God sake, she is not getting younger. When is she gonna realised what has my mother sacrifice for her...

Most of my friends told me to leave the house..they say why are you still staying there...go out and live on your own. Easier said than done...main thing here is, how can i leave my mum with my sister like that? There is no one she can turn too except with me. I will hold on staying here at my sister's place for her sake. I understood my mum, her refusal to leave this house. Her affection towards the children is unbearable. Told her once, your grandchildren will live, don't worry. Her answers will be, wait till you have kids and grandchildren on your own, you will know what I feel. So...what can i say to that...

Anger, stressed and mentally tired is everything that i have to adhere for my mom sake. Patience is a great virtue i tell you. I prayed everyday asking for more patience and less anger in me to adapt with my sister attitude towards my mum. Alhamdulillah, Allah has been granting me my prayers...more patience.

I wished my sister will realised this situation before it is too late. Too late for even to ask for forgiveness from her own mother.....Masha ALLAH. Let's pray that my sister will come to her senses.....soon...Insya ALLAH....